School Of Life || Schule Des Lebens

A few years later life presented me another challenge. I got tested and I failed big times. I did not love myself enough to be able to protect myself. I see all of this. I’m studying my plan in order to continue my way. Through all this weakness, I generated an enormous strength and power to pull myself through difficult times and move beyond that. I’m confident.

I have trust in my abilities. And I feel blessed with love, surrounded by great people to support me as well.

Thankful for life I am taking this challenge. I realized I moved on to different authors, being drawn to finding answers. People like Aristotle, Nietzsche, Dostoevsky and many more… centuries ago they already discovered similar and they wrote about it. I sure heard about it before, in philosophy classes at school. Back then it didn’t mean a thing to me though. Now I am eager for knowledge and I need to read more and learn about life. I need to pay more attention to the world I’m living in and I need to care even better. And I need to use all this to take the challenges life presents me!

Currently I am reading a book about duality and about soul mates. I chose the book because of the bad promotion it got. That made me curious and I wanted to make up my own mind. Reading it, I totally agree with a lot of parts the author wrote. I found myself within that book and at the same time I’m aware I don’t need to agree with every tiny part. I may use what ever applies to me. Once I’m done with this book, I’m ready to move on. Slowly, as every day life is keeping me busy. Real busy.

The past days I worried that being that busy is killing my sex drive and my creativity. It sure influences who I currently am and often I don’t like myself these days. And that is okay too. There are days I’m totally convinced and love myself for who I am. Duality. Various parts of life.

Speaking of creativity, I sometimes found myself not being able to write blogs as regularly as I wanted to. It was no pressure, still I missed blogging. And all of a sudden here I am writing and writing, because „my muse kissed me“. And it sure was an intense kiss. No need to worry, as nothing is for good. I enjoy that knowledge a lot. It sure puts a smile on my face. So I’m taking my chances and continue writing, since I was just kissed by my muse. My words need to find their way out. This feels fulfilling.

“Yesterday I‘ve been dancing around at my place. I was feeling myself again. The pleasure and suffer of life, the enormous emotions.”

Sovely Matters

While being happy be happy and enjoy unicorns throwing up rainbows. And when you suffer, know it has a reason and use it too! Twist it around and make it become your strength. Express it. Live it. Enjoy it. Be the gifted person that you are!

Back in the days I felt jealous in a way that people like Paulo Coelho are such excellent writers. Paulo Coelho’s words seem to be clear and self understanding to me. I found myself wishing they were mine. Also I read a poem of the Rap artist Tupac Shakur called “I’ve seen your soul before”. And this poem naturally became part of my life. Repeatedly I came across the words. Repeatedly I met people who touched my heart and soul deeply. And repeatedly I found myself thinking that these words should have been mine. This poem is the only one I know by heart. It is who I am. Great writers lived on this planet and great writers are still living, struggling and writing. It only is great, when it is pure and has a heart and a soul.

I am happy, though I am in the middle of a depression. I am happy as I‘m using the ugly depression to turn it into something beautiful. I’m making myself stronger, that’s my choice. I’m growing. I am full of thankfulness.

And I like to invite you to join me on my journey. That’s why I am writing and why I will continue writing. I am writing and writing and I poured myself into these words. It carries my heart and soul. Words that became alive as I lived through it. In this case it is all about myself and I am proud of it. The great saga of life – I’m loving it! Life is a wonderful gift. Life is precious and worth to really be lived in consciousness. Thanks for participating and thanks to my love for keeping me going. It’s all good. Let’s live, laugh, love life – and so much more.

It’s on all of you now, as much as it is on myself. It is your lesson to find your way and to do it your way! Keep going, make it become a part of you.

Make it your life and enjoy!